Gon and the 5 Stages of Grief. An in-depth Analysis


Do not read this post if you haven’t watch Hunter X Hunter Chimera Ant Arc. Actually, you will need to have watched Hunter x Hunter since the beginning to truly understand this post.

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Gon transformation in Hunter x Hunter Episode 131 – Anger X And X Light, that made his body mature around 20+ years, and most likely made him the most powerful person in the world, could have been achieved by Gon going through 4 of the five stages of grief multiple times. Let’s analyze each stage explaining why everything builds toward catastrophic anger.

Stage: Denial

Gon completely denies Kite dead and in this case, his usual positive attitude plays a significant role in clouding his reasonable judgment (if he had one, to begin with).

Kite Loses Arm
Pitou attacks Kite ferociously cutting down his right arm. Episode 85 – Light X And X Dark

After witnessing Pitou attack on Kite and having felt her sinister aura Killua, always calmed and collected, immediately concluded that Kite couldn’t have possibly survived the fight with Pitou. He even said to Netero, Morel, and Knov that he couldn’t see any of them defeating that thing. On the other hand, Gon starts to develop a powerful state of mind, clearly determined in believing Pitou couldn't have possibly defeated kite. This marks the start of Gon denial stage.

Gon telling Killua Kite is Alive

He even convinced Killua that Kite was still alive and they should hurry back to save him. At that point, Gon assumed Kite was hiding from the Chimera Ants, and he convinced himself that, do to Kite injury, he would not be able to do anything. Gon saw himself as the hero that will rescue Kite from his imprisonment. All he needed to do was get stronger.

Stage: Depression

Gon Frustrated Weakness
“I never knew how frustrating weakness could be” - Gon, Episode 91 - The Strong X and X The Weak

Gon becomes frustrated to the point of a momentary depression because he couldn’t beat Knuckle and felt overwhelmed with his weakness, which prevented him from saving Kite the second time they went to NGL. Note that in the definition of the depression stage (see references below) the depression comes from the realization of losing someone, but in the case of Gon, he is depressed because he is too weak to do anything to save Kite.

Gon Getting Over his Frustration
Gon screams with passion to get over his frustration.

Gon quickly gets over his depression by merely shifting his belief that Knuckle and the other Hunters will save kite. All he had to do on his end is become stronger not to disappoint Kite when he comes back.

Stage: Denial

After witnessing Kite puppet-like condition Gon holds firm to his denial of Kite being dead, but this time though he shifted his denial from having to rescue Kite to finding a way to get him back to normal. By now Gon had gone through the denial stage twice by just changing the conditions, so he doesn’t have to acknowledge Kite is dead (he is in complete denial).

Gon Hugs Kite
Gon hugs Kite apologising for him being in that state. Episode 95 – Grudge X And X Dread
Gon I want that one myself

Stage: Anger

Gon focused all his anger towards Pitou blaming her for getting Kite the way he was (like a marionette). His previous weakness is compensated with hate so deep that grants him catastrophic power.

Gon Jajanken to Morel

All Gon had to do was focus all his hate toward Pitou to unleash a power entirely fuelled by rage and anger. Even Morel got scared when watching Gon’s attack.

Stage: Bargaining

Gon feels incredibly helpless with an overwhelming amount of guilt. He finally accepted (after two denials) that Kite indeed is dead. Even still (true to the bargaining stage) he tries to negotiate a way out of his loss by assuming several “What if…” statements and blaming himself for Kite death:

Gon crying over Kite dead

If I haven’t gone with him Kite wouldn’t have died…

It was because I tagged along…

It was really my fault…

It’s my fault that Kite is…

No… It isn’t my fault Pitou’s the one who killed him! Not me!

But it was me…it was me…I killed Kite

Help…someone help.

Gon ask Pitou to heal Kite

After blaming himself and assuming Pitou would use Doctor Blythe to heal Kite after she healed her arm Gon finally accepted reality which leads to…

Stage: Anger (an absurd amount of it)

Gon goes through the stage of anger once again, but this time, after finally accepting Kite indeed is dead, the amount of anger toward Pitou is so vast that made Gon level up to level a trillion. All the conditions were met to awaken this power, and the amount of hate and anger was so absurd that Gon didn’t care if that was his end. As long as he could completely obliterate Pitou from the face of the Earth, he will come to terms with his suicidal decision.

Gon Aura Transform
"I’ll kill you Pitou!!!!" - Gon Episode 131 – Anger X And X Light

After having massacred Pitou and going through the stages of grief multiple times, Gon was overwhelmed with an extreme sadness of finishing the job the way Kite taught him, but without being able to save him. Even after an undead Pitou cut his right arm, Gon felt somewhat redeemed and could at least die after achieving his mission.

Gon Adult Confused

Stage: Acceptance

Thanks to Killua and Alluka, Gon came back from certain death and was able to reach the final stage, acceptance. Although in this case is completely different because Kite didn’t die, he well….turned into a little girl.

Girl Kite with Gon

What is interesting here is the acceptance applies to both Gon and Kite because neither of them had the training required to defeat Pitou without dying. So after cheating dead, they just needed to accept that they should move on, now as true friends that will help each other in the future.


Gon going through all grief stages to reach his transformation was so amazingly built that when it happened in episode 131, it was a masterpiece. It didn’t occur because plot convenience (I’m looking at your Fairy Tail!!!), it happened because everything builds to that point. What do you think? Leave a comment with your thoughts and theories. Would love to discuss details I didn’t see.


Reddit Discussion

I'm quite happy redditors liked my analysis. This post took me a while to write.


  1. luna on June 10, 2021 at 09:45

    what are you all saying

  2. Anonymous on April 28, 2021 at 03:04

    Loves watching it die! The look of fear in it’s eyes was exquisite! 🤤

  3. Anonymous on April 7, 2021 at 12:30

    i thik that go still hates himself

  4. Anonymous on December 17, 2020 at 21:37

    and is there any sites that have the dubbed version of hxh?

  5. Anonymous on December 17, 2020 at 21:31

    what episode does the netflix version end on?

    • nat on February 28, 2021 at 01:37

      i’m pretty sure episode 76, there is more episodes on hbo

    • Anonymous on March 16, 2023 at 18:52

      I think like 150

  6. Anonymous on July 15, 2020 at 17:30

    Nice how can I watch season 5? I watched season 1-4 on Netflix. Is there any way I can watch the rest without paying money?

    • Anonymous on July 20, 2020 at 23:26

      The app Crunchyroll has all episodes. There’s commercials unless you sign up for the free 14 day trial or sign up for the app.

    • Anonymous on October 8, 2020 at 17:21

      there’s also free sites. like 4anime, which is a site that has the rest of the episodes. I used this to watch the rest of HxH.

      • Anonymous on October 18, 2020 at 23:43

        4anime.to and Animeflix I hope this helps

    • Anonymous on November 3, 2020 at 12:04

      Yeah! There is something called tubi

    • Anonymous on November 6, 2020 at 07:40

      you can

    • minsugars on November 9, 2020 at 21:05


    • Anonymous on June 7, 2021 at 06:19

      Yes on kissanime however u would have to search for the ep cause it not decided into seasons and y can choose between dub and sub

    • Anonymous on August 11, 2021 at 03:29

      if you still have Netflix, seasons 5 and 6 just got released

  7. Anonymous on July 3, 2020 at 20:29

    D Rick

  8. Anonymous on December 17, 2019 at 12:26

    can someone tell me the episode that Gon meets Kite

  9. Christina Tano on October 24, 2018 at 16:03

    Please help!! Need to know what chapter Killua took his sister to the hospital to heal Gon?? Need to get caught up…..

    • lomaymi on October 24, 2018 at 19:34

      Hi Christina!

      That would be Episode 145 – Defeat x And x Reunion. Fantastic episode BTW!

  10. Christian on August 1, 2018 at 00:09

    I would like to know the episode from the picture of Gon talking to girl Kite, saying they both need more training. Thank you.

    • lomaymi on August 1, 2018 at 15:55

      Hi Christian. That would be Episode 147 – Salvation x And x Future.

  11. F on May 10, 2018 at 07:37

    I agree with previous comment very well done!

  12. ASH on June 5, 2017 at 01:55

    Very nice article i am not the one to comment on such things but i really felt you’re work didn’t get the appreciation require loved the analysis and the sequence job well done

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